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Formulating a Topic September 15, 2008

Filed under: Life... The Way I See It — candidchatter @ 9:40 am

I have so much I want to write about today. My mind is all a flutter just thinking about all the things I want to touch on. Some are serious, some are ridiculously funny because I’m a freaking comedian. No ego here, kids. Nooo. I had to put this post on hold this morning to take the girl to preschool (yay, she’s no longer sick) and to pay our bills (yay — uh I mean — BOOO). The boy is watching Wow Wow Wubbzy and won’t budge. He doesn’t even want to play with me. So hello guys/gals — I’m here to entertain.


Anyway, I was listening to a local radio station this morning and the DJ was talking about effective Christian T-shirts. Now I am not a huge fan of Christian T-shirts (and neither is this DJ) because if I wear one I have to be sure I represent well. Sometimes I am not in the mood to represent. Esp when there is a person in front of me in the 10 items or less lane at the grocery store with a cart full of groceries and this person is older than Moses and decides to write a check which then won’t be accepted by the store for insufficient funds and then the manager has to get involved and the older than dirt person is escorted out of the store for pulling a gun on the cashier. When that happens I get an attitude with a big “A”.

But the conversation was why not wear Christian T-shirts (if you’re inclined to do so) with things Christ actually said on them instead of some clever spin to make the person wearing the T-shirt seem oh-so-holier-than-thou. Great idea!! Here are a few examples:
“Love Your Enemies”
“Blessed are the peacemakers”
“Be reconciled to thy brother”
“Anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart”
“Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you”

Just a few examples. I’m sure you could come up with 100 great ones on your own. I have to admit that if I started sporting things Jesus actually said they might actually burn a hole in me. I am the worst at judging others. The worst! However, when I recognize it is taking place I try so hard to repent. Wearing Jesus geer would probably help me more than it would help anyone else. Maybe instead of a “Jesus said:” T-shirt I should just write little index cards of His words and place them around my house. Let those words burn a hole into my soul. Yeah. That’s what I should do.

Then there is last night while I was lying next to Jeremy. He has a cold. He wanted medicine. He didn’t need medicine though. He had no fever. I don’t give my kids medicine unless it is absolutely necessary. So instead I gave him a dose of his Mommy. I laid down next to him until he fell asleep. I took that quiet opportunity to pray. I prayed for all of the children around the world who would not go to bed as Jeremy did. For all the children who went to bed like this:

  • lonely because they have no mom or dad to comfort them
  • hungry because there is no food
  • thirsty because there is no water
  • sick because their little bodies are riddled with illness and disease
  • afraid because they are abused
  • worried because they can hear mom and dad screaming at each other
  • confused because they have been taught to hate people different than they are

My heart breaks because of the evil in this world. Esp evil that preys on babies and children. If I think about it too much or for too long I start to cry so uncontrollably with a helplessness that invades my deepest being. I’ve asked God to remove this burden from my heart. He hasn’t. It keeps me awake at night wondering what child needs a hug or a loving remark or praise or help. I can’t take it. I simply crumble.

They are so defenseless. The things they have to endure are so senseless. Why? I ask this so much. Why??

Dear Lord,
Please change my husband’s heart towards adoption. Please! Why burden me if he is to remain so unconvinced? What is Your plan here? Help! Amen.


8 Responses to “Formulating a Topic”

  1. Heidi…why are you insistent on making me laugh so hard that I want to cry and then in the same post making me want to cry so hard that I can’t possibly laugh again?

  2. candidchatter Says:

    Steve: Welcome to my chaos. God has unraveled me from the inside out. I’m broken and I can’t keep it inside. I love to laugh. But I burn to cry. Hopefully he’ll use my idiosyncrasies for His glory. That’s the goal, I think. [shrugging shoulders]


  3. Or…one word…hormones…:)

  4. Tony York Says:

    On the first section of the post concerning things Jesus said and t-shirts… King David would completely understand what you were saying. He had that verse in Psalms that went something like this -“I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you.” (Psalms 119:11) He even told us that he meditated on God’s word night and day… now there is a radical thought. And a cool one.

    On the second part about children – Maybe God wants you to have that heart for children and there are many, many ways to get involved besides adoption (not to say that adoption isn’t what is right for you). Christ said that whatever we did to the least of these, we have done to Him…. whether someone needed fed, clothed,or housed.

    I hope that you find the answers that God has for you. I have learned that if I pray for Him to open doors, that He will – I just have to be willing to step through.

  5. jalack Says:

    Heidi, don’t take this the wrong way but that post was about as funny as stompin baby chickens. I almost started crying thinkin about all that.
    I was thinkin ‘Yippee it’s going to be a funny sarcastic Heidi, but no it’s a empty my bank account giving all my money to Compassion International and now I have to travel to China to adopt an orphan or twelve’. Dang it Heidi….
    I wonder if I could talk my wife into adopting?

  6. candidchatter Says:

    Tony: That’s why I am trying to become a nurse. I want to do medical mission trips. I’d especially love to work with orphans. I figure if Rich won’t adopt an orphan, then I’ll just go spend time with them. It’s my “retirement” dream. Guess he’ll be home in the states golfing and fishing while I travel the globe caring for the babies. 🙂

    Jason: You don’t even need to empty your bank account. Just help one. Sponsor one. Give to a local children’s charity. I’m sure you already have compassion on the little ones of this world. If adoption is for you, I will support you 100000% though.


  7. tonyyork Says:


    Medical mission trips would be transforming. For you and those that you connect with. What a wonderful plan to have – share it with your husband and share it with your kids. Plant that seed and by faith it will grow and bear fruit. That is an exciting dream… I am overjoyed about these types of topics because I have been blessed to see some of the need in other countries. I say blessed because it changed my heart.

  8. candidchatter Says:

    Tony: I’ve seen it too. My whole family and circle of friends knows this is my dream. In fact, my nieces now want to become nurses so they can do the same thing. They are 10 and 11. It’s going to be so awesome!!

    Thanks for the encouragement.


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