I have so much I want to write about today. My mind is all a flutter just thinking about all the things I want to touch on. Some are serious, some are ridiculously funny because I’m a freaking comedian. No ego here, kids. Nooo. I had to put this post on hold this morning to take the girl to preschool (yay, she’s no longer sick) and to pay our bills (yay — uh I mean — BOOO). The boy is watching Wow Wow Wubbzy and won’t budge. He doesn’t even want to play with me. So hello guys/gals — I’m here to entertain.
Anyway, I was listening to a local radio station this morning and the DJ was talking about effective Christian T-shirts. Now I am not a huge fan of Christian T-shirts (and neither is this DJ) because if I wear one I have to be sure I represent well. Sometimes I am not in the mood to represent. Esp when there is a person in front of me in the 10 items or less lane at the grocery store with a cart full of groceries and this person is older than Moses and decides to write a check which then won’t be accepted by the store for insufficient funds and then the manager has to get involved and the older than dirt person is escorted out of the store for pulling a gun on the cashier. When that happens I get an attitude with a big “A”.
But the conversation was why not wear Christian T-shirts (if you’re inclined to do so) with things Christ actually said on them instead of some clever spin to make the person wearing the T-shirt seem oh-so-holier-than-thou. Great idea!! Here are a few examples:
“Love Your Enemies”
“Blessed are the peacemakers”
“Be reconciled to thy brother”
“Anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart”
“Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you”
Just a few examples. I’m sure you could come up with 100 great ones on your own. I have to admit that if I started sporting things Jesus actually said they might actually burn a hole in me. I am the worst at judging others. The worst! However, when I recognize it is taking place I try so hard to repent. Wearing Jesus geer would probably help me more than it would help anyone else. Maybe instead of a “Jesus said:” T-shirt I should just write little index cards of His words and place them around my house. Let those words burn a hole into my soul. Yeah. That’s what I should do.
Then there is last night while I was lying next to Jeremy. He has a cold. He wanted medicine. He didn’t need medicine though. He had no fever. I don’t give my kids medicine unless it is absolutely necessary. So instead I gave him a dose of his Mommy. I laid down next to him until he fell asleep. I took that quiet opportunity to pray. I prayed for all of the children around the world who would not go to bed as Jeremy did. For all the children who went to bed like this:
- lonely because they have no mom or dad to comfort them
- hungry because there is no food
- thirsty because there is no water
- sick because their little bodies are riddled with illness and disease
- afraid because they are abused
- worried because they can hear mom and dad screaming at each other
- confused because they have been taught to hate people different than they are
My heart breaks because of the evil in this world. Esp evil that preys on babies and children. If I think about it too much or for too long I start to cry so uncontrollably with a helplessness that invades my deepest being. I’ve asked God to remove this burden from my heart. He hasn’t. It keeps me awake at night wondering what child needs a hug or a loving remark or praise or help. I can’t take it. I simply crumble.
They are so defenseless. The things they have to endure are so senseless. Why? I ask this so much. Why??
Please change my husband’s heart towards adoption. Please! Why burden me if he is to remain so unconvinced? What is Your plan here? Help! Amen.