My beautiful little 3 year old boy has a nervous twitch.
If you could hear my heart breaking…
I noticed about 2 weeks ago. He blinks too tightly and too much. Do you know what I mean?
At first, I thought he had sand in his eye. I kept trying to help him with this invisible sand, hair, dirt, sleepie gunk that had to be in his eye because why else would he be blinking like that? He kept telling me nothing was in his eye.
“Why are you blinking like that, then?”
“Like what?”, was his response.
He doesn’t realize he’s doing it.
My brother displayed a nervous reaction to my sister Holly’s birth. He started to st-st-st-st-stutter and he created an imaginary friend. My parents said, with time, both issues resolved all on their own.
But to know me in reality you’d know that I over analyze everything. Even trivial things.
What have I done wrong?
Don’t I pay enough attention to him?
Does Jaxon’s crying bother him too much?
Does he feel left out?
Am I ignoring his needs?
What am I missing?
What are we doing wrong?
My sweet Jeremy. If ever a boy has stolen my heart, it’s you. I don’t think anyone on this planet has ever loved me as much as you do. Not even your sister, as affectionate as she is. I want to help you, son. I’m so sorry you’re nervous or stressed out or whatever is causing you to twitch. I love you, my little guy… I’ll try to help. I’ll try to create a calmer and more loving environment for you. I’d move to the moon if I thought it would help you. Love, Mommy