I am getting sick of the Internet.
Really sick of it.
However, I come here daily. Several times a day, in fact.
I come here for the adult “conversation”. I come here to laugh. I come here to debate. I come here to stir up something so I can turn the table and make it spiritual or align it with the Will of the Father. I come here to do Kingdom work. Sometimes it is purposeful. Sometimes it is for entertainment.
I’d rather read a blog or catch up on Facebook than watch TV.
I’d rather check out Fox News than watch the news on TV. Heck, I can’t watch the news on TV for fear something will be said or shown that is inappropriate for my young kids.
I don’t have time to carry on a real conversation on the phone any longer so I e-mail.
I don’t have to go to the library to research anything. I can just Google search it.
I can even sign up for and go to college online.
Sometimes I seriously consider closing my blog and deleting my Facebook account.
I don’t use Twitter. I refuse.
I don’t use MySpace either. Too childish.
I deleted about half of the blogs I had subscribed to on my Google reader about 4 months ago. No time.
Am I getting close to disappearing from Internet land for awhile?
I’ve taken time off here and there. But, when I do that I get bored and pace my house or get ideas that always cost money. I’ll take the kids to fun places, but that also costs money usually. Sometimes a lot. Sometimes a little.
I’ve often wondered if it’s so bad being on the computer. It’s probably not. But, inside this thing wells up telling me that I shouldn’t. Guilt? Maybe. But, why? I don’t neglect my family. I don’t neglect my duties. I sometimes avoid housework, but who doesn’t. The other day I did not want to clean the inside of my house so I went outside and trimmed the bushes instead. I was still avoiding the inside work.
I still read my Bible. I still pray. I’m not letting it interfere with my spiritual growth. Sometimes I even use the Internet to help with my studies. So that’s not an issue.
Why do I occasionally think I should not be online? Millions of people are online every single day for one reason or another. Why do I think I shouldn’t be?
I don’t know.
Am I missing anything by being here?
I don’t think so anyway.
Am I lacking a life?
Not even close.
I have a wonderful life and awesome family and loving husband.
I have great friends.
I belong to a fantastic church body.
I feel like I’m on the go more often than not unless it’s laundry day or take a break from being in the van day or Mommy is too sick to drive day (which has been happening a lot more than usual lately).
What is it then?
Does anyone else who spends time online connecting with others socially (not work related) feel this way?